Beside You

Don’t shed a tear

For there is no need to fear

And I’m right here

Beside you near

Rain or shine

Here in the arms of mine

I’ll keep you in cloud nine

Even if it takes time

I’ll give you all of my love

Don’t ever think you’re undeserving of

Because you aren’t

And wouldn’t be

-a.k.

I am actually really really proud of this poem. The first ever poem that I actually rhymed. I would give myself a pat on the back for that.

This poem is a reminder for that person that I would always be there and never leave. Even though it might be hard, we would get through it. This is a reminder that no matter how you feel like you're all alone, I would be there beside you near.

Mind Vs Heart

my mind thinks that i would never had a chance with you

thinks that i am a fool for falling for you

that i was stupid for trusting you to catch me

i think it’s time for me to move on

but my heart feels otherwise

my heart feels that there would be a chance

feels that you feel the same way

that you’re just to blind to see it

our story would be a happy ending

but who would i listen to?

mind or heart

-a.k.

I got this idea from an e-book that I am reading currently. It's a Filipino book called 'Angel In Disguise' and I am falling in love with it. This book is basically about a guy who's too dumb to actually notice that this girl is in love with him. This isn't the whole story but that's like the middle part of the story. But I got this idea and thought about what would it feel to choose between your smart mind or your foolish heart.

Birthday Poem

a year older

but nothing has changed 

I'm still that two year old

who cries about small little things

I'm still that four year old

who laughs and wanted attention

I'm still that six years old who sees the world as a wonderful place

of hopes and dreams

I'm still that nine year old 

who loves every guys every guy she sees

today marks another chapter of my life

it reminds me that I got through

ups and downs for fourteen years

and it gives me hope

that I can survive eighty more years of shittiness

and that I can still be me because age is just a number

and nothing would change in my heart

-a.k.

I wrote this poem on my birthday when I turned fourteen. I wrote this to actually remind myself that I will get through this tough times and it is just a phase. I had fun on my birthday and my friends actually surprised me. I thought they weren't coming but they shouted at my door with a loud, "Happy birthday, Heaven!". I was really really surprised and happy that they came and made my birthday a wonderful day. 

I still go through ups and downs even my birthday just passed.

I Love It, Keep Doing It

the way you smile, showing off your set of teeth

i love it, keep doing it

the way your eyes shines 

when you stare at something

i love it, keep doing it

the way your shoulders go up and down

when you laugh so hard

i love it, keep doing it

the way you whisper my name 

directly on my ear and nibble on it

i love it, keep doing it

-a.k.

this poem is not well thought of and i kind of think that this doesn't mean anything. it's just plain words that describe what someone does

Do Anything For You

I’d write you a song

about how I feel about you

with melodies and rhythm 

defining how slow and fast my heart beats

when I’m with you

I’d write you a poem

about how I feel about you

with rhymes and stanzas

emphasising how words in my head

juggle up when I look at you

I’d cook you a food

even though it might taste bad

and make your stomach grumble

but it’s okay

as long as we get to eat

on a table with candles lit

I’d sit with you at midnight

on your porch with my guitar

I’d sing my song for you 

and your eyes will reflect

the stars and moonlight 

and I would be falling 
so hard with you

-a.k.

I've been thinking about a guy recently. Basically, he's going away and not going back so I can't see him the next school year. And it really made me sad because I never had the chance to really talk to him. I said from my last post that I tend to like guys easily and we don't even talk that much. And it hurts that everything that I imagined about him and me would be only kept inside because it can never happen. It also hurts me that I am this freaking coward that could not even say hi to him.

I'm In Love

when songs became stories

that’s exactly like ours

when my eyes crave for your brown ones

and my fingertips ache for your soft skin

when rain became our playground

kissing and playing, oblivious to the vast world

when your name became a soothing symphony

that comforts me every time

when thinking of you became a habit

and it just never stops

when your arms became my safe haven 

and your smell’s on my bed

that’s when I know that I am deeply in love with you

-a.k.

this poem is actually inspired by Taylor Swift's new song called 'You Are In Love'. I am loving that song so much and I actually thought about what would change when I fall in love with someone. There were actually a couple of times in my childhood that I actually thought that I was in love. But as I grew up and started thinking about it. I felt crappy, like what kind of person am I to think that I was in love with a guy I barely know. As I grow up, it became easier for me to like a guy. I think because it feels nice to actually like someone. I have no idea how to describe that feeling but I think it feels nice to expect that the guy would like you back and you would have this point in your life where you would be happy. But dreams are free so I could just keep on dreaming.

Space

wipe off that make-up

turn that frown upside down

there's no need for you to fit in

because being you is enough

to fill up the empty space

there in his heart

-a.k.

I really like how I wrote this poem. As you can see this poem is shaped as a heart. I am proud of that.

Well, this poem is about self-acceptance. I have read a lot of books and poems about a girl who looked everywhere but to no avail, found no one who loved her but actually there is that someone she just didn't realised, loved her more than she love herself. I can say that I have never been in love. But common sense tells me that what's the point of loving someone when you, yourself, don't love yourself. How can you say that's true love when love isn't in visible in your heart.